Goodafternoon upper east sider, looks like this sunny afternoon seems peaceful today. *cut the crap beeeeeyotch* okay im telling you people that my sleeping hours are screwed up. seriously, i dont even know whats today date. everynight or should i say morning, i'll always sleep at 3am in the morning. it always occur to myself, i will always automatically be awake by 12. by then i would be sleepy, but i shall not adapt to the new habit tho. or not i will get eye baaaaaags. not. nowadays things are harsh and arent going smoothly.

My B.F.F is the only girl whom will listen to all my pointless drama over and over again w/o getting bored. no im serious, somehow or rather we do have something in common. met up with crazy B.F.F two days back, we did some catch up upon our lives and bid goodbyes.

i dont why, but ive been stuck with this sign whenever im taking pictures.basically it stands for LOS ANGELES which how i wish i could go there. hmm, dream girrrrrl.

relationship: its complicated for now, i dont know how to elaborate tho. it seems sooo uptight with each of our lives. things arent going the way its suppose to be, it seems soo harsh and rough nowadays. i dont know if its my fault for not being the most caring girlfriend but from what i know, i did my best and dont tell me i didnt tried. i did. im not sure where the fvcking hell is he right now, but i know he was out yesterday and wasnt home yet when it was already 10. i did texted and calling him asking where is he but he didnt respond to my text nor calls. so i assume he doesnt even have any phone with him, boleh tanam sudah handphone you! you can forget of getting anything from me okay?

maybe from outside you see smiling like im the happiest girrrl on earth but deep down im hurt with all yer craps and bullshits boy. i had enough and im tired baby of keeping all those emotionals to myself. whats even worse, letting you know the truth. its unxplainable for all i care. screw you. i do have limits and dont ever test my patience!

*breathe in breathe out* on the other side, i gotta think optimistically. im getting my pay in less than 6 more days. im gonna splurge on every single thing i can see and not gonna worry about all the negative things. heck care about all those feelings. what i know im gonna shop till i trip and drop. im letting out all my feelings now, so mind my language. nah by this Saturday im going to watch RAPUNZEL, to realize my anger and LOL!

*i fvking pissed off with people around me, so you should understand how im feeling now. everybody have their ups and downs, dont act like you dont okay? get that it in yer mind.

-xoxo,

elyzaaa conrad

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