zellow, yellow, bellow. in another way of saying HELLO.

oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh myy gosh, frankly speaking i did very bad for my prelims. see i told cha i flunk th two subjects. well indeed, not only those twoo subjects as th matter of fact, i didnt manage to pass any papers for todaaaay xxxcept for elements of business skills which i get at least a B for that. yes, that bad huh. which means it is a wake up call for me. i must say that almost half or more didnt pass some of th subjects. it was terrifying to see my results, seriously. i have to face th consequences still, thats whut you get when you do badly. i felt anxious and nervous upon my results, but after seeing it i felt like giving up in studies. me and hafiz was talking about whut is going to happen after secondary school life. which we didnt want any of that to happen, sometimes come to think about it. we have to suffer first then enjoy, true? but even if we study and gave in our effort in it, we still didnt manage to achieve whut we want and feel like giving up soo easily. and then we have to persevere in order to achieve whut we want again. after several times, in deed we will succeed. but by th time we succeed, when will it be? *reflecting for a minute or so*

*sighs* how i wish i could rewind th past and do even better for th previous exaaams. and how i wish to fast forward time so that i could just move on and get a life after secondary school life. school svcks seriously, well i used to be good in academic matters and love going to school but not already. even my brotha says i have to buck up, acadamic wise seems to be changing as in weaker in every way. everything seems to be changing, from aaaa to zzzz. but idk whut it is? is it just me or something else is bothering me?

i am awfully dissapointed with myself.

not in a mood to say anything at all seriously. i need someone to talk to now.

i need werds of encouragement, seriously. gosh, if there's no one. well i just have to read my girlfriend magazine in order to get werds of encouragement then. then again, i need time and treat myself for th effort i put in through out those awful weeks.

i need my boyfriend now, i want him badly eventhough we met up yesterday already. i want you badly baby/bubu. i want yer warm cozy hug right now in order to over this situation. boooooohoooooooooo;( where are you now? text me asap pleaseeeeeee.

-xoxo,

elyzaaa conrad.

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